My little Moon

 L.R.D.

“Love hurts, love hurts a lot when it has nowhere to go”.

Every time I think about you I can't help but feel sad and I wish with my whole heart to have just a minute, just a second, just an instant to hug you tight and tell you once again that  I love you and that I’m sorry. My love doesn't know where to go and it comes back to me sad, desperate and hopeless because it couldn't find you. Since the day you left us, everything became dark, cold and meaningless. Life and dreams lost their colors and the places only became memories.

Every night, I wish I could find you in my dreams because there I would be able to see that smile, that happiness, that innocence and that air of royalty. People don't understand, don't talk, don't try to remember. I wish I were like them, but my heart doesn’t allow me to go with them ; I wish they were more like me. My soul needs a refuge; it needs a safe place to go, but where can it go if you are not here?

Don't ask me to forget my partner of adventures, of laughter and madness. The most beautiful accomplice, with just a glance we could know the answer, we promised to keep our secrets and to protect each other. But apparently, you did it better than me, even when you were falling you preferred to protect me with all your strength. I wished with all my heart that I could have caught you, taken your hand before you hit the ground. I wasn't a hero just like you with me, I hope one day I can forgive me  ‘cause I know you already did. 

The things are not the same and I know they will never be the same again. I miss you in a way that words can't explain ; I only want to run after you, chase you with my eyes and see you and adore you one more time. Is that too much to ask ? My heart cries out your name with a closed mouth, strong women don’t cry. If I only had an opportunity I would never let you go I would use all my strength to hold you because I love you. Just with a glance you could make me smile and breathe fresh air, the simple fact of telling you your sweet nicknames made my heart dance. 

I would trade all the candy in the world for the chance to kiss your little nose. I would give all my belongings to ruffle your hair. I would give all my money to go for a walk with you. I would give my whole world to feel close to you again. You were one of the best things in my entire life, thank you for just being you for being with me and making me feel loved, happy, accompanied, special, childlike, valuable, and alive. My little princess. 

26-09-16